It's been three and a half years now,
all come and gone.
Retrospectively,
I look down to see
exactly what I have become.
It takes only an instant for me to see
there is no destiny.
It's silly to believe.
Because what I am,
would never be
if you were still here with me.
Painfully, I miss you.
But there is nothing I that I can do
but mourn
and fondly think of you.
But still it hurts,
day in and day out.
With nothing else to think about.
Maybe none of this was meant to be,
but you died
and now I'll never see.

Resting in chaos
Is all I foresee
In the pallid pupil
Of me staring at me.

Rhyme 22

Just six feet away
But worlds apart
Too far to detect
A faltering heart
Time ticks on slowly
Space stretches wide
For a moment I believe
That I'm on your side
The chasm creeps closer
I begin to fall in
With no place to run to
And no hope that I'll live
I fall down beside you
To land six feet under
Somehow by your side
I'm lost in the wonder

Rhyme 21

So cryptically blue
That wide eyed stare
As it permeates through
To a waking nightmare
Reality untouched
No truth, no substance
Crude morals, all rough
And lost in the trance
Now a fissure licks through
Time and space open up
Past and future, as two
Collide in chaotic disrupt
The face melting event
As we rush in to see
Starting where we once were
Ending in what's still meant to be

Rhyme 20

Engrossed by the end

That will be the demise

Of all of the things

I once helped to rise

Fascinated by dreams

Manifest fantasy

Until eyes open to

The check of reality

Now midnight blue skies

Emit blue consciousness

Questions unanswered

And lost in the mist

When nothing is clear

And sore eyes can't see

Feels like no one is there

With a hand to guide me

Love in my bones

All that I instigate

Who knew love once was

The companion to hate

I will not pretend

I'm immersed in this cloud

But it has coated my eyes

In a thick, heavy shroud

Waking up

Starting slow

Step by step

Toward the glow

Rush to the end

When there is no need

For as time goes on

It will proceed

Fall into the truth

Come crashing down

Twirling through the air

When I crash, I'll break ground.

Rhyme 19

Secrets remain invulnerable
Vulnerable remained my secret
Promises I meant to hold
When feelings began to mold
Tall hypothetical tales I create
Repetitious lies of fate
In the unknown, finding fixation
Struck breathless by the coloration
Of light dancing in your iris
Like the fog strolling in, weightless
The winter breeze had given me chills
I ponder alone, roaming coastline to hills
To be reborn where this treasure was found
Unanticipated, gleaming, you unwound
I'm a fragile newborn lain before you
The waves ripple, distorting a true view
When it is time, do you have the key?
When all is said, will you still be there for me?

Rhyme 18

Lost in those fantasy eyes

That drip my dreams as they cry

Wipe them from your cheek, my dear

For I have something you must hear

That kiss I left will last forever

On your skin, it will grow better

For all distance and all of time

It will remain fondly as mine

Whether together or apart

You are stained onto my heart

Never to be bleached away

For it has made me who I am today

And as we wander into who we are 

The cosmos wrote it in the stars

That we should cross paths in the sky

And I'd find my way inside your eyes